Myra - I SWEAR BY THE TIME

24 hours is never been enough ...
"I swear by the time, Most surely man is in loss, Except those who believe and do good, and enjoin on each other truth, and enjoin on each other patience" (Al-Ashr 1-3).
I guess I am in loss now. My 24 hours is never enough. I wish I could have 24 hours more. I am used to awake at 7. 00 AM. Ready to go to my Office at 8.00 0r 9.00. Then I am struggling with the copy writing stuffs. If there is ads to do ... I can spend almost all day in my office (I used to work 'till 12 AM or even 3 AM. If there is nothing to do then I spend all my day browsing, chatting, or reading a piece of garbage ... ). Sometimes it is hard for me to tell my family of what I'm doing. Once they asked me, "What are you doing at office exactly? It's unbelievable you stay in your office late night!". Then I begin to be so confuse, for my answer will never give him any sense at all. Here I tell you what I am doing, "I am thinking ... of how an ads should be presented!!". I am sure the next question will be, "What? Are you contemplating and trying to have a wit?". Honestly, I don't even know what I'm doing??? Maybe I'm trying to spend my 24 hours.
Here I am ... After graduate from English Department UNPAD on August '08, at the same time I have become Advertising Employee as a jr. copy writer, then I tried to divide between I'm as copy writer, as a writer, as a daughter, as a sister, as a dog's owner, as a Moslem, as a friend, as an Arabian lover, as somebody's secret lover, and as a human!!!
Myself as copy writer forces me to "spare your time for learning the copy things",
Myself as a writer begs me to "please write a short story even just an hour from all hours you have",
Myself as a daughter are so sad when my mother said "Why you always don't have a time to have just a light conversation with me",
Myself as a daughter is also tortured when my father texts me "Now you have time to meet me, don't you?"
Myself as a sister is angry knowing it is hard to just say, "Hi sister, how are you? I have so much time for us to talk!! How's life?"
Myself as a dog's owner hates when I find Sheesha's cute photos and just can regret, "next time I go to Bandung I will spend my time to just playing or sleeping with you."
Myself as a friend will rearrange appointment AGAIN by saying, "NEXT TIME I promise we will spend time together!!!"
Myself as Arabian lover asks "When we have REALLY time for ourselves? Being selfish by just talking about silly and unimportant things. When you are really with me? ... and we are not disturbed by Arabian family gathering, Arabian Reunion, and other Arabian occasion which lasted more than 3 days ... "
Myself as somebody secret lover will always say, "Yes you will always have my time ..."
Myself as a Moslem will say, "You must be ashamed of yourself, you don't respect the kindness of God in giving you time BY WASTING IT UNWISELY."
Myself as a human then defend, "I AM JUST HUMAN ... I'M DOING SIN SOMETIMES".

And I am so tireeeedddd ... really tireeed.
Well ... based on that verse am I in loss? Or the time isn't adequate ... or I have to choose what exactly I want to be most ... -Myra Fathira-